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Name: Emma
Birthday: 10/25/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: Video games, fantasy books, friends, friends, friends, my cats Peekaboo and Baby Boy, my car, art, color guard, music, starting to play my trumpet again.
Expertise: I'm pretty good at finding money when I need it.
Occupation: student
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AIM:  crystalbal900@aol.com
MSN: crystalbal90@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  crystalbal9000@yahoo.com
Member Since:
2/28/2005
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| I've realized that in the development of a separate xanga that I blog on, I've neglected to update this one and also my facebook. But perhaps that's because I don't think there's anything big of late that's happening that I feel the need to update my public (ha) on.
*thinks* Uhm...
2 anime conventions coming up in the next month and a half, Detour and ACen, so watch for pics from those coming soon after...
Sarah and Baron's wedding also at the beginning of May, bridal shower soon, and bachelorette party. ;D
I haven't done anything too interesting to speak of really.
Traveled a little bit, went to see Melanie for her 7th birthday, and visited my friend John in Monmouth.
Life is uneventful.
That's all?
Ciao.
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| You know, over the past year or two I really lost sight of why I used to read so many books.
I mean, I knew I enjoyed it, and at one point reading was my sole focus of my spare time.
Why?
Because it brought me such a pure joy to read a well-written story, to lose myself in its pages, to forget the world around me for minutes and hours at a time.
And yet people would always question why I was laughing at something I was reading, or crying, or angry.
But my response was how could they NOT?!
It was a story!
Just as you identify with a movie's characters you become part of the plot line when you read a good book!
Yesterday I picked up a book of mine that's sat on its shelf for quite a while.
Not sure entirely why, either, for I really had no wish to read it.
But when I sat down and began reading, the minutes on the clock slipped away as I fell into the story.
And when I resurfaced and realized 2 hours had passed like seconds ticking, I pulled myself away to sleep - because I had to.
Not because I wanted to.
I wanted to keep reading.
To submerge myself once again in that wonderful bliss.
I don't think I fully realized it years ago, but I know now why I (used to and hopefully will more in the future) read so much.
The pages of my books can carry me away to worlds where I feel like I belong so much more than I do to this one.
I had grown used to the dullness and bleak colors of this world in the past 2-3 years.
But diving back into the pages of my books I discovered I could see clearly, and I once again lived and breathed with those characters, what you could perhaps call my very first friends when I had no one else.
And I'll never lose them, which is comforting in a very big way.
They're always there, a page-turn away.
They make me laugh, make me cry, make my breath catch as I fumble to turn the page during a conflict.
They steal away hours of dullness and replace it with a beauty so breathtaking it can't be replaced by anything else in the world.
I thought music was my window to emotion, to expressing myself.
Now I see a little differently, because I got older than I should without realizing it.
I'm like a kid again at this very moment.
For the first time in years I feel that book pulling me away from my computer screen.
And I'm so happy to feel that pull.
I thought I'd lost it forever.
And I didn't miss it until I realized it was one of the things I've been missing.
For the first time in years...I want nothing more than to stay home, make a cup of hot chocolate, start the fire in the fireplace, and snuggle up in my blanket with a pile of good books next to my lamp - and stay there for days on end without even realizing that much time had been passing.
Happy in the escape, the warm welcome my books give me now - they haven't seen me in so long, we have a lot to catch up on.
:)
How I've missed you.
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| Dear god, it's really been 2 months since my last update? Guh. Here goes.
Work has been hopping. I never realized just how busy Toys R Us gets in the Christmas season, especially since the remodel. Insanity. I've been close to strangling people in the past 24 hours because they're those guests you just want to shoot. -_- What a shame I'm not allowed sharp things at the front desk. It's a tragedy. Ah well. I enjoy pulling $400+ checks so really I'm happy and since it keeps me busy I can't complain.
School is winding down for the semester. One more final tomorrow and then I'm done and home free for a month. I have Christmas with Bekah this Saturday, and Kyle this Sunday, then family Christmas sometime next week, then to Kansas and Nebraska for my other respective families. I haven't seen them in like 3 years now, so it will be interesting to attempt to blend back in with them. Not that Ellyn and I ever did much blending in the first place, but oh well.
Other than that, I've been a really boring individual these past two months. Hung out with Mello a lot, spent a lot of money on McDonald's, met some new friends, reconnected with some old ones. Figured out some things about myself. I guess you could say I got my heart broken again, but to say that also insinuates that I found someone else to love. I question that honestly. I have found myself flashing back to this summer again, and it's left me shakier than usual. I guess that's life though, yeah? I have my wifey, and my Jefferham is back from Des Moines. =] I've missed him so. He offers more constructive advice than anyone else has besides wifey seeing as we're both in the same place in life.
Uhm...other than that, there's really nothing that's been going on. I rave, I sleep, I eat, I work, I do homework. I kiss wifey. ^_^ | | |
| Another month seem to have flown by. So I guess it's obligatory update time. Yay?
Really nothing has been happening. I've been working, and I've been going to school. And that's pretty much it. I got a wig for my Jessie of Team Rocket cosplay. And I just got my wig for Lust two days ago, it looks great. Bekah paid for me to get my hair done for my birthday that was last weekend, and I got it cut and styled, I have BANGS, and it's streaked red. If it was anything near my last hair thing I would've said fuck the wig, I don't care about my cosplay THAT much. But yeah...I'll chalk out $50 I don't need for a wig that makes my cosplay look better. Hell yes.
Mello got a giganto van. Old school style! So we're all going to Nebraskon in that. It's going to be a LOT of fun. 1 week yo!
Also went to UNI a few weekends ago, for homecoming. We lost, but I still had fun. My birthday was last weekend too, had it at gameology, and it was really fun, minus a few down points, but meh. Overall a good experience. One more year to 21!
...well, I feel boring. So I'll stop boring myself, and all of you, and go do something more interesting now. XD
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| I'm not sure what I'll end up writing, but an update seemed like a good idea when I realized it's a month to the exact day since I updated.
Uhm...where to start...
After AI I guess. It was the post-con depression for everyone, it sucked! But the better news about that is that we actually have decided to attend Nebraskon November 6-8, and I have already reserved two hotel rooms and there are already 12 people who are definitely coming. Mello and I are the brains behind the operation. X3 (I<3Mello.) Pre-reg is only $37 right now, so if anyone wants to come, post and let me know and we'll add your name to our list of people who need help getting there! It's going to be super fun. Me and my friend Marcus have decided at some point we want to do a gothic Alice in Wonderland and Mad Hatter, not sure if that will come to fruition by Nebraskon though, it's kinda short notice.
Uhm...school started. It's...bleh. I don't mind 3 of my classes, but my intro to sociology class I hate, not because of the material but because of the people. It's like I walk out of a college hallway and into a high school classroom. Last weekend I visited UNI for a game and to see some friends and that coupled with the realization that I really don't want to stick with the nursing program has made me come to the conclusion and personal decision that no matter what, next year I am going to attend UNI. I miss it far more than I thought I would, and much more that I actually realized that I did. I miss the professors, I miss the classroom settings, but most of all I miss my music and color guard. I can't wait to get back to it. I am however grateful for this year I'll spend at a community college, partially because I feel ashamed walking through the hallways here and partially because I needed a push to help me decide what to do with my life, and hopefully I have a little more direction now than I did a few months or a year ago.
Toys R Us is great. Sunday there's a meeting for all the cashiers, and it will be Vicky (our manager) telling everyone else that I am the new person in charge of all of them. When I tell them something it will be the same as a manager telling them something, so if they don't do it they're liable to get in big trouble when I tell another manager about it. Things at the front end need to change - people are lazy and the work doesn't get done so Vicky and I are the ones left doing the extra work - that we don't have time to do. My hours there are still good. My last paycheck wasn't as good as it could've been because I did a lot of traveling, one weekend to my dad's in Wisconsin for my little brother's 4th birthday and once to Six Flags Great America with Nate and Tim to celebrate Nate being back for a couple weeks from the Marines. It was great fun.
My days are spent working or going to school, with down hours inbetween spent with Mello and sometimes our little Marcus. We eat a lot of chinese food, waste a lot of gas, and play a lot of L4D. We've also gone swimming at my house a lot, it's been VERY warm for September. Most of the time I don't even want to go outside because you step out and sweat starts dripping down your face! Dammit, global warming for the lose. September means crisp fall weather, not summer in December!! It's ridiculous, but I guess it's still fun.
I haven't been playing any games to speak of. I'm kinda drooling over the new WoW expansion they've announced, and will definitely dive back into WoW right before it comes out to check all the new stuff out, but right now I have no time at all for that kind of thing. The free time I do have I want to spend with my friends, or doing homework. My computer still goes everywhere with me but I'm not on half as often as I used to be, for good reason I guess. Too much to do!
I think that's all? Sure, we'll go with that. Ciao. | | |
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